Another lonely day in my home, without any chance for a happier future in my life. I spent my entire day by reading my university subjects in order to cover my sadness and not thinking my sad life. I wonder if i have the chance rebuild my life and my reputation to my colleagues. Every second i ask myself why i am sad, why i can't live my day and why i cry i a daily basis. I wish this nightmare to end in the recent future because i can't deal with situation anymore, it's so exhausting for me.